To define Detox is quite simple, when we detox we rid ourselves of things that are not good for us, that can hurt us.
I had lunch with an old friend of mine this week, it was wonderful in so many ways. We talked about how we grew up, the challenges we faced then, the ones we face now. And one conclusion we had both come to is that some where along the way we had been building up religious toxins in our hearts, in our lives, in our understanding of life.
I had collected so much religious toxin that I was trapped with the idea that I was just never good enough. I was terrified, always that I had just sinned one too many times and I just wasn’t going to make the cut.
Now I know all the verses and I still felt this way. I know that there is no condemnation for those in Christ. I know He will never forsake me nor leave me…. I could list all of these comforting verses but the truth is I was so full of religious toxin that these did me no good. My religious diet was full of what was being done wrong with a huge list of don’ts on the side. I was so focused on sin that I couldn’t see past it to the grace that was claimed to be there for me. I could not focus on any kind of relationship with God because I was too focused on perfecting my walk. ( to use christianese)
We were created for relationship. We were created to love…. and in order to love truly we had to have free will… because forced love is not what we desire.. it is not what God desires. So why not focus on this? Read the Bible because I WANT to, not because it will make me better but because it will enrich the relationship in which I was created for?
Have you ever walked down the street looking at nothing but your feet? You can do it for a while, but eventually something is going to get in your way, you may not even be walking in a straight line but you’d never know it because you are so focused on the mechanics of it. Walking down the street with your head up, taking in everything and just walking is more effective… because walking is natural. When we focus so much on making sure we pray just the right way, making sure we read the bible enough, go to the right church, do this right, that right, but dont do this and dont do that… you are focusing on the mechanics of something that you were created to do and therefore should come naturally.
Anyway, so here I am, detoxifying from religious toxins. I have a very different perspective on life, on religion, church… family … all of it. How crazy is it that I feel more confident with who I am in God, and it’s become a controversial thing.